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Horses. Wolves. Poodles.
Nightwish. Phantom of the Opera.
Lord of the Rings.

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    I can't help wondering why I'm still here.

    I can't seem to pick up a pencil no matter what.

    I'm either too tired, too sad or too angry to even try. Or if I'm kind of happier for a passing moment, trying to draw would just be unleashing a pending failure, so I won't risk it. 

    Or I'm too busy. And when I'm not, I'll think of something else to do. Or I just think. Of all the things I shouldn't think of. I hate to drown in obligations, I'm sick of all the things I should do... yet it seems healthier to be busy and thus miserable than to have free time I'm only capable of using to make myself even more dejected.

    I tell myself regularly When I get this or that done, I'll draw something but I only end up using the idea of drawing as an imaginary reward - something I'll have a chance to do when other things are done - but when it's actually time for the reward... a mere idea of it already feels like a punishment.

    So, I imagine what I could draw, yet knowing that I can't do it well enough there is no point in trying. Some say not even trying is the biggest failure there is. Maybe there is a glitch in my brain but I disagree. For me trying nothing is the norm, more or less frustrating but not acutely painful - unlike actually making an effort and ending up with just another tangible failure. I rather accept being a failure with no way out than keep actively failing.

    On the other hand, I guess part of the problem is not seeing any worth in succeeding either. Such happiness is fleeting and never complete. Doing anything well doesn't seem to give me anything anymore. I don't know if it ever did or if I just imagined it would.
Unworthy by Embers
Unworthy

I wonder if I'm ever again going to like anything I draw... Take this one for example, it's got absolutely nothing in it that I wanted there to be. Nothing. And I didn't even want much. Accomplishment: wasted a couple of hours on it. Shouldn't have. Wasn't worth the effort.

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No need to thank me for llamas
- but I'll gladly have one in return.

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:iconxxmarilliaxx:
xXMarilliaXx Featured By Owner 5 days ago  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Thank you  for the Llama! ;)
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thetimidgamer Featured By Owner Jun 4, 2016  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Great horse pieces, love the realism and detail you put in.
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Mehda8D Featured By Owner May 26, 2016  Hobbyist General Artist
Wow that is seriously some amazing art! Thank you for the llama and I'm definitely giving one in return and watching now! :D
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Embers Featured By Owner May 26, 2016
Thank you so much! :hug:
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:iconmehda8d:
Mehda8D Featured By Owner May 26, 2016  Hobbyist General Artist
Anytime :meow:
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:iconoblokmagellana:
OblokMagellana Featured By Owner May 3, 2016  Professional Traditional Artist
Thank you for Llama!
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:iconevgeniya-bengalskaya:
Thank you very much for the Llama!
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TheBrokenMasterpiece Featured By Owner Apr 18, 2016  Hobbyist Digital Artist


Also, you are an amazing artist. I hope you find your inspiration -- your spark -- again soon. We all have those times where the fire of drawing dies out. But I hope you hold on, that you find what it is to make you feel like drawing again with all of your heart. :)
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Dream-Wolf-Creations Featured By Owner Edited Apr 17, 2016  Student Traditional Artist
Thank you very much for the llama! I appreciate it! C:
P.S. You are a wonderful artist, and I am honored to be able to receive a llama from you.
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Bostongirl7519 Featured By Owner Apr 16, 2016
Dearest Embers

Thank you for the Llama.

However he smelled terribly.  But
we washed him with Rose petals.
I love using them. When he came
out he smelled so good, I had to
kiss him.  I so wish you could see
how happy he became.
Love,
DeeDee



Herr Llama Emperor 3D Llama Badge Herr Llama Emperor    
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