Some self-esteem wantedA very little would do. Ideas, anyone?
I just browsed through my own gallery to convince myself that I actually can draw... and somehow failed. I don't mean I hated everything I've ever done, no, that's not it. The problem is that when I look at pieces I've done a year or two or ages ago and I can't even believe I sometimes could do things like that. I cannot believe I've drawn them. How weird is that?
I don't know... I haven't managed to draw anything half decent in a very long time. Sometimes I really hate being such a perfectionist. When nothing works out perfectly everything starts to seem like a total catastrophe. Well, it's not the first time that I'm losing all faith in my abilities (like there were any to begin with...) to do anything. I keep telling myself it's just a phase, it'll pass. But it never really does.
My main reason to still try to draw has become to convince myself that I can do something. The times I get as far as trying are just getting very few and far between... and when I constantly fail, I wonder how long it's possible to keep fooling myself that it's just temporary. And to complete the circle, drawing is my only real escape... and now I'm escaping it.
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Isolated
I'm not going to
And go NIGHTWISH!!!
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"Don't ask... Just accept..."
"...This is where heroes and cowards part ways..."
"Put all your angels on the edge..."
"...You fear the beast inside..."
"...Unlock your heart..."
I love it!
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Whatever walks in my heart will walk alone......
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.: my gallery .:. You cannot like it if you haven't seen it. :.
Whatever walks in my heart will walk alone......
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